The new Gangster Turned Guru logo.
Artist cred. goes to Mr. Erik Casillas.
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The new Gangster Turned Guru logo.
Artist cred. goes to Mr. Erik Casillas.
Let me know what you think.
“”I’ve condemned myself to hell on earth,” I thought.
Not only am I indicted for a drug conspiracy, but I was under investigation for extortion, a string of burglaries and armed robberies connected to a crooked Suffolk County cop, a group of shady lawyers and one of the Mafia’s five organized crime families.
When Erick Sermon went head first out a fourth-floor window, I was the first person called. My crew had a reputation to dish out street justice. There was no aspect of this gangster lifestyle I didn’t participate in.
That first year of incarceration, was one dramatic court hearing after another. Each taking a toll on my mother. When she learned that my friends were cooperating with the government against me, she took matters into her own hands.
Mom walked quietly but carried a big stick.
My mother had a reputation of her own in the streets.
The district attorney learned that Mamma Wright was in Gestapo mode and brought it to the judge’s attention at the end of my hearing.
“Your honor, there’s one last issue I would like to address, concerning the defendant’s mother,” the prosecutor said pointing to my mother in the courtroom.
John, turned around with raised eyebrows, looking at my mom who smiled, shrugged her shoulders, listening to what was said.
“What’s your concern?” the Judge asked.
“We’ve received information that Mrs. Wright has confronted a number of potential witnesses and we would ask the Court to advise her to stop. She’s attempting to obstruct justice.”
My mother kept smiling.
Then the Judge addressed her directly, “Mrs. Wright, although the Court does understand a mother’s love for her son, please cease contact with witnesses involved in this case. Interfering with a federal investigation is a serious crime. Please allow your sons’ lawyer, who I’m sure has a licensed investigator, address any issues that have any significance to this case.”
“O.k.,” my mother said, nodding her head, still smiling at me as I was lead out of the courtroom.
That evening, I was unexpectedly called down for a legal visit.”
Chapter One: The Beginning
Eddie K. Wright
“I experienced the difference living in the black world and the white one. I was sheltered in the safe white world in the suburbs of Long Island, living on a dead end block with close-knit neighbors. Prejudice incidents still occurred with kids once in a while. Being called a nigger was the one word I knew justified any physical beat down I dished out in childhood fights. But I had a good healthy adventurous upbringing, riding BMX bikes, playing hide and seek, joining the boy scouts and playing soccer.
As I grew into my adolescent years, my white friends were into groups like AC/DC, Metallica, and Guns and Roses. I was into Africa Bambada, Sugar Hill gang and break dancing.
I was always encouraged to be whatever I wanted to be in life.
Get your education and the sky’s the limit.
But it wasn’t something that I believed. It sounded good when my mother would tell me but growing into a young black teenager, I held different views of life with a sense that my opportunities would be limited.
During my confused, angry, teenage years, I began getting into fights so I started selling weed, I had zero respect for authority and ended up attending five different high schools. Somehow I graduated from Central Islip High School on time in 1991.
At 18 years old, I had a newborn son named Andrew, who I was denying from my ex-girlfriend. I obtained numerous arrest and from what the principal said at the graduation ceremony, this was just the beginning of my journey in life.
I continued acting out on a path of self-destructive behaviors, thinking fighting and shootouts at clubs were cool, just to be known. When I began selling serious drugs, the way money came cemented the idea in my mind of what I wanted to do.
I heard that lifestyle would only land you in prison or the graveyard.
“It wouldn’t happen to me,” I thought.
But even when it did, after doing my time, six months in county jail, then four years in Virginia state prison, I felt so caught up in the life that I thought being a gangster was what God put me in this world to be. I was following my destiny, right off a cliff.
By 32, I was well known in the criminal underworld, connected to street gangs, drug cartels, and major mafia families. I had a house with no mortgage. My new wife was a beautiful young pregnant Columbian knock out. I was managing Erick Sermon, the legendary rap artist, and music producer, traveling the globe and making plenty of money. From the outside looking in, I was on top of the world. But my inner voice would ask “Where am I heading? When is all of this going to come crumbling down?”
Change is a powerful word. It can inflict a strong sense of fear, in those that need it the most.
When our lives have hit rock bottom, the suggestion to change is the one thing that can appear to make things even worse. As long as we live with self-destructive thought patterns and belief systems, difficult results will continue to show up in our life experiences.
I found myself asking life questions, answering them with the gangster thought system that clearly didn’t have the right answers to bring about change.
“What’s the meaning of life?” “To get rich or die trying.”
“What brings happiness?” “Money and the things I can by with it.”
Those were the rules I lived by.”
Aug 12, 2018, at 12:19 PM
People wonder how it is that I can cherish the moment of right NOW.
I admit it’s a learned behavior, especially in my current living conditions, back on appeal here at M.D.C. Brooklyn.
I’ve found that the key is learning to put life in the proper perspective, a perspective from which you have a choice to choose.
That’s what determines the conditions of our lives anyway, a series of choices that attracted the situation we find ourselves in NOW.
So NOW, what choices are we making?
I choose to be positive and optimistic regardless of what’s going on, and I’m faced with monumental challenges that don’t always appear to be working in my favor.
But I have this secret power of faith that I’m always able to rely on in difficult times.
Fears and worries of future events, only hijack the essence of the presence of NOW, cutting one’s self with a double-edged sword.
I choose to be happy and grateful, living in the moment of NOW because in all reality, NOW is all we have.
If I allow my mind to wander with all the should of’s, could of’s, and what if’s, I’d stress myself out, losing all the peace and poise I’ve learned not to take for granted.
I entertain a certain mental attitude of gratitude, that conforms to my spiritual system of belief, and choosing to cherish the moment of NOW positively, is a determining factor to the unfoldment of the conditions I attract to the NOW of my future.
There is an impelling creative force at work in our lives, directed by our thoughts and emotions. The choice to choose in this moment of NOW, expresses to the world who you are. If your not happy with that choice, in that same instant of NOW you can change.
The choice is always yours and always has been. Yet, when we find ourselves in undesirable conditions, accepting responsibility for our bad choices is hard to admit.
But NOW that you know, NOW you can do better, and there’s no more perfect time to apply what you NOW know then NOW!!
Eddie K. Wright, Gangster Turned Guru
This out of all these letters is the hardest to write. You were robbed the most, as an unintentional victim of my mistakes. You of all my children, have never yet experienced me outside of the prison walls.
But you could never tell that based on the relationship we share. We can look at one another, and no words need to be spoken for us to have a clear understanding.
Last year, you looked at me and said, “WOW, you’re my dad,” and repeated emphatically, “You are my dad.” Then you gave me a big smile. Do you know that every time I look at you, every time I hear your voice, see your picture or think about you, which is all the time…that’s the exact thought that I have about you. “WOW, you’re my daughter!”
Everyone knows you’ve always had me wrapped around your pinky. I remember at an early age when you started recognizing your mesmerizing abilities over me, like a superhero coming into their unique special powers. It was when you boldly talked back to your aunt Mimi on the phone saying, “You need to talk to my father because he said I can have whatever I want!” Leading to Mimi reprimanding me about spoiling my princess.
But I could never do enough to right the wrong that my errors caused in the unforeseen consequences that have affected you. You’re a beautiful spirit with a joyful soul that has an inner strength to overcome any challenges you face.
I can write pages of all your potential and how much I love you but it’s not needed because every time we look at one another, “WE” know. There are no words that can fully express my love for you but I sum it up the best, letting you know that every time I see you, in my head I’m telling myself, “WOW, that’s my daughter!”
Love Always Daddy
You’ve always been an added blessing in my life. I often think about the times we shared, hearing your two year old voice in my head, singing the song you made up in your car seat, after returning from one of our trips to Toys-R-us. “Eddie Papi is the best!”
I laugh whenever I think about when you attended Tutor time nursery school. Since only the male teacher assistant was in the class, you refused to let him take you to the bathroom. With tears in your eye’s you looked up at the teacher and said, “If you take me to the bathroom, my daddy will kill you!” Automatically triggering a call from the school.
I always wanted to be your protector as any father should. I flip through our pictures from all the prison visits, seeing how much you and your sister have grown, reminding me of all that I’ve missed.
I’ve been the cause of many difficult challenges in your life and I apologize for that. Although you haven’t been to see me in a while, never think that my unconditional love for you will ever diminish. You know like I know we share that unbreakable bond. You also know in your heart that….Eddie Popi is still the best!
Love always Daddy.